"Because I am FAT"

I see more blogs on being skinny, not eating, purging and just plain obsession with being bone skinny than I do on being fit and healthy. It makes me so very sad. I understand where these girls, women are coming from as I have been there and lived it, but I just wish there was a way to reach them and let them know that there is a better way to get what they want. There is a way to obtain the body they want without robbing their beauty inside and out by killing themselves slowing. In fact most might see that they can obtain a much better body the fit healthy way. 

Their one and only goal is getting skinny not matter the cost. The cost being your looks, your beauty, your life. If they only knew by going the more healthy route they could have the same thing and be fit, thin and healthy and not have to suffer anymore. The hard thing is to get them to see what everyone else is seeing, what you and I see. When you're in this disease you don't see what everyone else is seeing when they look at you. You only see that you're fat, you're ugly and each day you suffer to try to change that by starving and hurting yourself from the inside out. If only I had the magic word to snap them out of it and get them to see their real selves and know that they don't have to suffer anymore.

When you're so far deep in this disease you don't care that your hair is thinning and falling out. Your nails a brittle and your skin is sallow and yellow. You're so cold even in the dead of summer. Your body aches and your stomach is sore all the time. You are so far gone you don't want food anymore and that's when it hurts to even eat so you don't eat. The ones who purge are loosing and rotting their teeth from the acid coming up when they purge. They are purging so much, some purge up to 10x a day and the acid from purging is just too much and rots their teeth. The throat lining is torn as well as the esophagus. Purging causes dehydration, abdominal pain and cramping, bloating, and constipation. The body cannot handle the large quantities of food taken at one time. The body does not know what to do with such a large amount of food and must work overtime to compensate for the extreme increase of food it’s receiving. The purging must then be performed in order to rid the body of the massive amount of food that is just received.

  Both anorexia and bulimia are ugly diseases and there are similarities as the side effects to your looks and overall health are the same and more worse both can cause your heart to beat irregular and even fail. One difference is someone who is bulimic can be over weight due to the enormous amounts of food going in and out of their body every day. The body is so confused that it can back fire and cause weight gain. Anorexics do anything and everything to be skinny and they don't eat or eat very little to barely survive. Both diseases abuse laxatives to rid their bodies of excess to obtain their goal of being thin. This too can back fire as your body gets used to the laxatives and will go into survival mode and hold weight. There are actual motivational sites, blogs that help you on becoming Anorexic and Bulimic and that is what saddens me the most. Teaching someone how to starve, suffer and eventually kill themselves should be illegal. Yet you cannot stop someones free will. Especially if they are determined to be skinny, bone thin and don't know any other way but the wrong way to do it. They will even kill themselves for it.

My hope is that these women, young girls and even men can be reached one by one before it's too late. Be taught and shown the right way to obtain what they want. Show them that they don't have to always feel bad and suffer to be what they feel is being thin and beautiful. Teach them that there is a much better way that they can still have the beautiful, thin body they want but be overall healthy inside and out. Be happy doing it and living it and eventually loving themselves for it.